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Post by Syll'kann on May 6, 2009 7:07:52 GMT 1
"I am afraid that it is too late for me in that case, my dear," Syll'kann answers, shaking his head a bit. "I am too old to keep up with a young Padawan now - and my knee is not going to get better." He meets her eyes and tilts his head a bit. "Do you think that I made the right choice back then? I am not regretting anything. That is too late. But tell me, Ladda."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 9, 2009 15:51:30 GMT 1
A soft smile appears on Ladda's face again. "You do not regret anything? Then I think you have answered your own question." She sighs, gently withdrawing her fingers from his to hold her cup with both hands. "I love children, Syll'kann, you know that. If I had been in your position back then, I would have taken two padawans. Three." Her eyes are distant and for a moment she says nothing. "I had a child, and I loved him. His death caused me more pain than anything else." She turns to look at Syll'kann once more, smiling sadly. "I do not regret a single moment. Not even back then, at his burial, did I wish that I had not had him, so the pain would not be there."
"No, my friend. If you are satisfied with the choice you made, why then wish that you had made it different?"
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Post by Syll'kann on May 10, 2009 22:19:29 GMT 1
"It still bothers me.... somehow." Syll'kann shakes his head a bit and folds his fingers around his own cup, as Ladda withdraws her hand. "I do not know how. Maybe it is just the thought of how my life would have been, had I made different choices in the past."
He looks at her again, a sad glinse in his midnight blue eyes. "I am sorry for your loss, Ladda. I would have been there for you."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 10, 2009 23:01:29 GMT 1
Ladda's lekku twist gently at his words. "You had your own life. Your own problems,"
"But I did think about you some times back then. I missed you,"
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Post by Syll'kann on May 10, 2009 23:05:15 GMT 1
"You.... missed me?" Syll'kann blinks a couple of times, surprised by her words. Why would she... Even to think about him. "I thought that you had forgotten all about me, Ladda."
The confused look in his eyes fades away, as he looks into her eyes again. "After all, I left you back then."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 0:03:56 GMT 1
"Forgotten you?" Ladda looks at him with a surprise not unlike his own. Then she smiles again, gently. "Yes, you left. But I did not get the impression that it was because of me?"
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 0:07:20 GMT 1
"No." Syll'kann answers. Perhaps a little too quickly? But he knows what he is saying. "Not because of you, Ladda. Never because of you. I hope that you understand. Back then I did not think that you would. I thought that you would hate for the rest of your life."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 0:17:57 GMT 1
Ladda's smile only grows. And beginning to look a little like a smirk. Her tone is solemn though as she answers. "I did not hate you, my friend. I knew you were a Jedi, and what your duty was back then."
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 0:21:31 GMT 1
Syll'kann smiles at her. Perhaps a little reliefed? You never know about him...
"I am glad that you did not hate me." He reaches out and closes his hand ever so gently around hers. "I had a duty back then, true."
But leaving you is the one thing, I regret the most in my life....
... wait. Where did THAT come from?
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 10:21:00 GMT 1
Ladda's fingers welcome his with a warm, gentle grip.
"Well, it was your choice, was it not? To be Jedi?"
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 10:33:24 GMT 1
"Yes, it was." Syll'kann nods slowly. Could he even tell her? It is not only the question of not taking a Padawan that bothers him. He knows that. Along follows other thoughts.
"Still it keeps me wondering.."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 10:36:47 GMT 1
"Wondering, my friend..?" Ladda tilts her head ever so slightly, as if to get a better look at the expression on his face.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 10:39:49 GMT 1
Syll'kann looks at her. He is good at keeping a straight face - in front of other people. Other people but Ladda. She knows all too well, what goes on inside his head. "Wondering about how my life would have been, had I made different choices back then." His thumb strokes gently across the back of Ladda's hand. "I should not be discussing this with you. It is inappropiate."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 10:45:09 GMT 1
"Inappropriate?" Ladda's eyes study his face even more thoroughly. Well, this is getting really interesting...
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 10:48:22 GMT 1
Syll'kann's lekku twitch a little again, as if some kind of fight is taking place inside the Twi'lek's head. He looks into her eyes, and a weak smile shows in the corner of his mouth. Then it disappears. "I better take my leave."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 10:58:14 GMT 1
This surprises Ladda. Leave?
"Well, if you must, of course..." She leaves the sentence unfinished, looking at one of the pictures on the wall. Away from him.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 11:03:46 GMT 1
"I have to." Syll'kann leaves the cup on the table and stands up, a little insecure, since his knee has begun to ache again. Then his hand suddenly moves, as if driven by an unknown will.
His warm fingertips gently touches one of Ladda's lekku, caressing sensitive skin. "I am sorry."
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 11:11:12 GMT 1
Ladda looks at him again, as she feels his fingers against one of her slender head tails. She is not going to remind him, that lekku also could fit under the 'inappropriate' subject. She gets to her feet, though it doesn't bring her to nearly his heigh. "You are?"
She is evil. She knows that. But all is fair in-... nevermind. She just doesn't want him to leave already.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 11:16:15 GMT 1
Though Ladda is not anywhere near his height, Syll'kann feels looked down on, as he meets her eyes. He nods, and his hand quickly withdraws from touching her lekku. "Yes. I am. But I have no choice." There. He said it. Now he can leave. But he does not move.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 11:21:34 GMT 1
Ladda smiles overbearingly. She can't help it. "Of course you have. We all do." She sighs gently.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 11:24:08 GMT 1
Syll'kann's fingers close gently around her chin, and he tilts her head back a little to look at her. He shakes his head a bit. "No. I have no choice, when it comes to you, Ladda."
Then the tall Twi'lek Jedi Master bents down towards her and kisses her lips.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 11:36:41 GMT 1
Ladda would perhaps have answered something, but before she can do so, she is..interrupted. And then she decides, that silence is golden...
He kisses her. He actually...kisses her. She suddenly remembers exactly how wonderful his kisses are. It's been years... So many years... And she had actually thought that it would stay that way. As the past.
She knows he is a Jedi. She knows that what he is doing, is forbidden. She knows she is only bringing him into more trouble by returning his kiss. But she is simply selfish enough to do it anyway.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 11:43:48 GMT 1
He just broke the Code.
That is just the one thought running through his mind, before he turns his attention fully to kiss Ladda. He moves his arms around her and draws her close, forgetting the Code, the Order, his duty, everything. But her. His lips presses softly, but firmly, against her warm mouth.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 11:50:24 GMT 1
She had expected it to be short. That he would quickly remember himself, and pull away. A little smile forms itself on her lips as he does the exact opposite.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 11:54:37 GMT 1
Syll'kann doesn't seem to be able to remember himself anywhere in the near future. His fingers gently stroke down her lekku's sensitive skin. It seems unbelievable that he could forget just how warm and soft her skin feels. How sweet her lips taste. How good it feels to hold her.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 12:07:59 GMT 1
Ladda's lekku twist gently with joy between his fingers, and she kisses him warmly. Her thin hands rest against his chest, her fingers gripping a few folds in his tunic.
She is really glad she made him stay a little longer...
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 12:19:03 GMT 1
Perhaps Syll'kann has forgotten how to break a kiss. Or he has just forgotten how to breathe. Whatever the reason, he doesn't let go of her, but continues to caress her lekku and her back.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 12:23:06 GMT 1
Ladda is not going to be the one breaking away. Not in this century. She is simply too content where she is right now. She knows it can end all too soon anyway, better enjoy it while it lasts.
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Post by Syll'kann on May 11, 2009 12:26:51 GMT 1
It is only the need for air that makes Syll'kann break the kiss after what seems like an eternity. A wonderful eternity, nevertheless... He still keeps his arms around her, looking deep into her eyes.
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Post by Laddaa'Nann on May 11, 2009 12:34:59 GMT 1
Ladda inhales slowly, filling her lungs with the air, she suddenly remembers is quite vital for living beings. Her eyes are glowing with a soft, amber light, as she looks into Syll'kann's eyes. All of sudden feeling dizzy like a teenage schoolgirl.
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