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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 19:24:51 GMT 1
"Paying attention? Come on!" Shep is working himself rapidly from irritated to angry. "That's not a fair assessment. It's not like concentrating is a easy thing to do around you today!"
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 19:43:29 GMT 1
"And why are you allowing your concentration to be affected? You should be able to stay focused, despite what is going on around you." Clearly, Kiineq isn't about to accept that as an excuse. He hasn't raised his voice, but there is a hint of disapproval in it.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 21:37:54 GMT 1
"How can I not allow my concentration to be affected??" Shep has raised his voice just a little bit now. All Jedi calm gone.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 22:04:30 GMT 1
"By focusing on what you are doing. By letting go of your conscious mind and letting the Force guide you. You cannot do that if you concentrating on everything else." Contrary to Shep, Kiineq is the perfect picture of calm Jedi Master.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 22:20:27 GMT 1
"How am I suppose to let go and let the force guide me, when your presence is so disturbing?" Shep says in a low voice looking away from his Master.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 22:35:05 GMT 1
"You need to be able to focus no matter what the circumstances. How do you plan to survive the real deal, if this is enough to make you loose your focus?" He keeps looking down at Shep, with a stern glance. "And if you can't focus, then we have a serious problem, we need to work on."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 22:42:24 GMT 1
"Come on! 'The real deal'?" Shep gets up and flaps his hands in frustration. "That's not fair!"
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 22:59:41 GMT 1
"Yes." Kiineq replies calmly. "No one ever said it had to be fair. But you need to understand what I am asking of you, and why." He has not once raised his voice and he keeps standing with his arms crossed.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 23:03:19 GMT 1
Shep walks a few steps away before turning to look at his Master. He puts his head sideways. "I don't understand." He says, the energy suddenly leaving him. Then sinks down onto the floor and hides his head in his hands.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 23:23:17 GMT 1
Kiineq walks over to Shep and squats down in front of him. He places a hand on the boy's shoulder.
"I know." he says and for the first time there is a hint of gentleness in his voice. "But if you will let me, then I will help you understand."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 23:32:30 GMT 1
Shep looks up to look Kiineq in the eyes. The Master wont be able to miss the tears filling into the boys eyes. "Please."
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 25, 2011 23:51:12 GMT 1
Kiineq squeezes Shep's shoulder reassuringly. "Good." he says as he meets the boy's eyes. The Master's green eyes are full of compassion. "This is important. If it wasn't, I would not be pushing you this hard."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 25, 2011 23:53:57 GMT 1
Shep looks at Kiineq in silence. His mind trying hard to keep up with all that is happening. His body tense and yet slack at the same time, calling out silently for help.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 26, 2011 0:02:15 GMT 1
"Close your eyes and relax. Breathe." Kiineq says gently. He places his other hand on Shep's other shoulder. "Take your time" He slides down to sit cross legged in front of the boy.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 26, 2011 0:04:41 GMT 1
Shep looks at Kiineq for one more second before closing his eyes. His body starts to relax, but doesn't get all that far before it seems to stall.
The boy is doing his best to work through what just happened, but he doesn't seem to be making any real progress. He feels stuck, almost trapped, and he don't know what to do about it.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 26, 2011 0:07:00 GMT 1
Kiineq seems to sense what is going on. "Tell me" he says quietly.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 26, 2011 0:09:51 GMT 1
Sheps eyes open to look straight into Kiineqs. "I don't know how to explain this. How can I not be affected by what happens around me?"
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 26, 2011 0:29:50 GMT 1
The Master calmly meets the Padawan's eyes.
"You should always be aware of what is going on around you, but not let it control you." Kiineq says. "Register it, acknowledge it. And the let it go."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 26, 2011 0:32:50 GMT 1
"But how does you just let it go? How can you stop it from affecting you? Everything we do is in reaction to what happens around us, isn't it? Then how can we not be affected by it?" Shep is talking more rapidly now, but his brain still hasn't caught up. It's like he has half the pieces to a puzzle, but none of them fit together.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 26, 2011 12:16:25 GMT 1
Kiineq nods slowly. He has removed his hands from Shep's shoulders. "Yes, it is. But you need to understand the difference between being affected and letting it influence your focus. Of course you react to what is going on around you and you should. But you should not let hinder your concentration."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 26, 2011 16:53:26 GMT 1
"But what is the difference?" Shep asks, he doesn't understand what it is his Master is trying to tell him.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 26, 2011 20:41:23 GMT 1
"The difference is, that you can allow yourself to be affected by things, but you can not allow yourself to be controlled by it. You need to be able to focus on what you are doing, despite what is going on around you. Perhaps even because of it."
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 27, 2011 19:29:26 GMT 1
"But how do you know whether you are being affected or controlled by something?"
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 27, 2011 19:56:48 GMT 1
"You will know, when you have quieted you mind and remember to listen to the Force." Kiineq simply replies.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 27, 2011 20:13:28 GMT 1
"Yes Master." Shep says, the tone of his voice showing how much he is thinking about this, trying to understand. Then his stomach rumbles, rather loudly. "You know I kinda wish that it was all easy to learn, but then it probably wouldn't be nearly as amazing." He smiles at his Master, his hurting head forgotten for a moment.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 27, 2011 20:21:02 GMT 1
Kiineq smiles at Shep's comment. "No, it would not." he replies. "Now, I want you to take some time to think about what we have talked about today. When you are ready, we will talk about it again." He catches the boy's eyes. "And it doesn't need to be today." he adds. "Take your time with it"
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 27, 2011 20:22:55 GMT 1
"Yes, Master. I will." Shep says with a nod. There is no doubt in his mind that this will take a lot of thinking.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 27, 2011 20:29:14 GMT 1
"Good. And let me know if your head gets any worse." Kiineq says.
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Post by Shep Azoras on Jan 27, 2011 20:30:08 GMT 1
"Yes, Master." Shep says, remembering that his head actually hurts. His stomach rumbles again.
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Post by Kiineq Tiran on Jan 27, 2011 20:38:34 GMT 1
"Go and get some rest then." Kiineq tells him.
As Shep's stomach grumbles, he adds with a little smile: "And perhaps some dinner"
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